She is a tree of life to those who embrace her; those who lay hold of her will be blessed. Proverbs 3:18
I love the imagery here: a tree of life. A harvest of good fruit. Fresh green leaves. Full. Alive.
All that agonizing you do over making the correct decisions will pay off. All those prayers you prayed for wisdom will pay off. All the hours you spent studying God’s word and his wise servants will pay off. You’ll have a wisdom and a beauty that the world can’t touch or recreate on it own. But the tree doesn’t grow on its own. It needs nurturing, water, sun, good soil, and the blessing of God. And time.
Continue to ask God for the wisdom to make right choices and Godly thinking. Meditate on His word often. Get to know his wise servants.